真的，最后一次任性了！无悔了

Chapter 28

真的很大压力

Chapter 27 Random post

Puff Puff.

Dust everywhere.

A lot matter I wish to update here but I really no time to do so :(

Drowninggg with assignment. 

Every Wednesday pass up an assignment for Research Method.

Research Method is just the first step for the Viva. 

Eww, is terrible when I heard Steffi what she is doing right now which means I will do this after two sem.

Prayyy hard hard, if I fail Viva I can't graduate on time. 

Relationship.

nothing to update.

sincerely,

time will tell how much you love me, indeed.

Friendship.

you have your own choice your own priority your precious your whatever else.

all of you is my BFF until the end of the world !!!

Healthy??

perhaps my body is not that fragile

I always fall sick when I rushing assignment. ALWAYSSSSS!

I have no time to sick pleaseeeee :((

Study/Assignment/Presentation/Final

Holly shit when you see this term all put together

It doesn't seems nice.

So far I have leave two assignment and presentation only

but...

Both of this is my final project for this two subject.

Lecturer haven brief us on this assignment *tensionnnnn*

Wonder how to settle this within two weeks time

So just leave me alone, I will be super emo. 

After this two assignment presented, final is coming soon.

Final exam fall on 18 and end on 20 dec.

After that holidayyyy.Yipeeeeeeee

I have to start my revision right after I finish presentation.

Last day of exam I have to sit for two subject.

Family

Best mom ever.

Recently I seldom hang out at nigth coz I rushing assignment

Mom prepare a lot of nice food/soup for me  *feelinggggmamalovedeepdeep*

Dad went out station for two weeks already

Even though I seldom talk to him, but still I will what apps him.

December is coming real soon.

December is a lovely month for me. Celebration month.

Christmas decoration every where.

I just can't wait for the year end celebration.

*peaceeeeeeee*

kay, back to reality.

Assignment

ciaoooooooo

I just can't take this stress anymore!!
I have no way out for this stress!!

i din smoke, i din take drugs..i just went for a holiday?
my baddddd?
why keep mumbling??
Do you know how long i stress up myself?
July and August i work like a cow,i spend for myself.
I did anything wrong??

You always ask me read the news.
All is about tarc/F6 student can't get good result and eventually went to commit suicide
Is this the ending you want????

I tot you always proud of me?
I just trying to help my classmate.
Why you twisting my thought?
I never look down on her
Why you say i bully my classmate and even say I influence my friend to hate her???
I just want to help her because you taught me this!


I always happy outside doesn't means I am happy inside！
I very suffer for my final year!
I seriously has no way out to release my stress!
You still keep stress me out!


You never see how good am I!!
You always pointed my bad!
Whenever come to shit happen, you will just pointed is my bad!
Even is other people bad, you still insist is my bad!



Wtfuqq! No matter how good am I is never enough for you right !!!!

chapter 26 那角色

外头下着倾盆大雨，我在看着冲上云霄。
我一路以来都很讨厌胡杏儿，就是不喜欢她！！
这一集我看到summer和isaac在一起，就突然间很喜欢这个couple。
第一次，我没讨厌她做的角色。
明明开始了，isaac突然宿沙。
因为summer长得像zoe，我觉得很可惜
外头又下着倾盆大雨，我的心情突然很down。

Chapter 25 how my mom used to be

This morning i have to fetch mom out so I expect that mom will awake me.
I set my alarm 6.30am and 7.30am. I just off my alarm to sleep 10 more min, I tot mom will awake me. I have to fetch her out at 8.30am.

Get back to sleep is one of the best thing for me :)
When I'm awake, I look at my phone.
Fuck, I'm going to late for work. Is already 8.25am and I still have to fetch mom go out.
Rush to bathroom take my shower and get everything done. I tot mom already go out so I do not have to fetch her out. Suddenly she coming back.
I stare at her and raise my voice ask her: WHY YOU NEVER AWAKE ME??
She just ask me why you woke up late?
Then I din't answer anything and I just ask her get ready.

When she get into my car, she pass my breakfast to me. I told her last Friday I want to eat the kuih and this morning she do not have to work so she went to market bought for me.
Then, she told me : I think auntie went for holiday already, today she is off. I went to other stall want buy lunch for you they also din open.
Damnnnnn, I very guilty! Mom purposely went out buy breakfast and lunch to me yet i still blame her for this and that. I always take this as guaranteed. *guiltyyyyytothemaxxxx*


I always feel like mom only remember what my brother said! She always forget what I need and what I like to eat! She will just prepare my bro favorite food but I already used to it because I am big sister.
Until today, I know mom love both of us.

Swear to the God, my mom treat me like princess and I will treat her like my QUEEN.
I will pay back to mom one day and provide her with a super comfy life.
Just give me another two years time, mom.
I want to be an independent woman before 25 years old !!

chapter 24 innovate, creative and critical thinking

我真的有很多东西要分享，可是真的不懂哪里写起。
所以我决定写一些很无关痛痒的小事



                                       

这个sem我读了innovative, creative and critical thinkinng
听它的名字都觉得很深！
innovative就是发掘新东西
creative是创新
critical thinking是发掘问题的存在

比如七年前一个nokia7610都很厉害的
有谁想过七年后我们的电话都是touch screen，phew phew phew那样
你拿button phone出来，人家都会吓到。
以前朋友刚开始用smart phone全部都：oii,借来看下。
现在出到来喝茶，全部坐下按电话check in! 天啊！
看到吗？这就是innovate

回正题，这个sem我做的功课是portable heel shoe。
想象到吗？portable heel shoe，你只需要买鞋子。
那个heel你可以买自己喜欢喜欢的高度，自己喜欢的design。
只要换个跟，整个鞋子就不同feel了。
最重要是什么？很难才会撞鞋子，而且就算撞鞋子，直接拿你spare的heel出来换。
为什么Malaysisa designer没有想过这问题？

有个同学发问，是不是有了这鞋子女生会买少双鞋?
答案，我也不知道。但可以很肯定说的是，女人的鞋柜永远少双鞋。
这鞋的好处多不胜数！
我很需要这类型鞋子

读了这个subject
我每天在研究我用的东西
牙膏shampoo车锁匙电脑bra电话pad pad facebook汽水，一大堆很简单的东西
我突然间觉得是很伟大的发明
比如驾车
我在想，如果没有车我有可能到那么远去上学吗？

这些东西是很普通，可是我只要想到有一天其中一样消失。
天呐，怎么办？

我其实是好奇宝宝，但成绩不好。
我做不了科学家
但，我还是很敬佩他们哦！

chapter 23 family love

之前还信誓旦旦说要多点更新网志，真的很想打我自己。
现在都四月了，我都不知道自己写了些什么！

以后老了还有什么能回忆？
小姐，拜托你自己都来这里更新啦。
不然都年后你一定后悔的 ><
我知道的，我是这样的人

四月都接近尾声了，我还记得上个月尾我还很兴奋！
不知我，我们整个family都很兴奋
两个小堂弟和他的家人london回来malaysia两个星期
我还想了一大堆东西要带他们去吃

四月，我给了自己接近十天的假期。
月头倒是轻松得很，每天和小堂弟出去玩出去吃而已。
现在月尾惨了，要补回做工时间。
月尾连续九天都要做工，没有off day。

小堂弟四月一号回来，他们回来12天。
第一天他们回来，我们还是很不熟，毕竟那么多年没有见面。
第一天晚上我还有办法找到烟花给他们玩，我觉得自己太强了！好像魔术师 :D

玩了烟花还带他们去吃dessert
他们竟然讨论起小堂弟和ex的名字
两个人都叫darren
我很害羞 ！！！

晚上小堂弟睡不着，大概还是jet lag。
我还陪他看电影看到大概两点多叻，可是我们还是没讲话。
就大家各自看各自的戏，看完了就睡觉
第二天上八点半课，天呀！

第二天上完课就飙着回家找堂弟，然后带他们去看戏
我给大堂弟看GI JOE和新兵正传2的trailer，给他选看哪部电影。
没想到他选新兵
选好电影就带他们去看戏
开始和大堂弟有说话，聊天了
小堂弟还是静静，很酷的！

第三天就和他们去pavilion走街
带他们吃了菠萝包，喝deng tea吃了snowflake
因为五点上课所以三点就赶着回家了
晚上八点回到来，弟弟要我带他去买note 2。

我带埋两个小堂弟去
买了那么赞的电话当然试用相机功能，只能说他的连拍功能超赞！！
买了电话就带他们去大树喝茶
小堂弟很厉害，一下子喝完他的水。
我再order给他，他还是喝完！
半个小时差不多喝了六杯水。
小堂弟都试完mamak档的茶了，原来他不喜欢喝酸的东西

看，这小伙子多强！

星期六就和他们去了genting

就这样大姐姐和小弟弟小妹妹一起进theme park

去了theme park后就开始和两个小堂弟熟起来了

本来就是很完美的一天
没被跳楼机打败，却给旋转茶杯彻彻底底的打败了 :x

星期日就和他们去penang
我们总共14个人去，真的很多人。
很久没一起family trip了
整个过程很enjoy
多年后我都不会忘记，我们拍了很多很多照片拍和很多白痴video

我们去了三天两夜
星期二就回来了
星期三我们还一起去游泳
他们在london没什么机会在户外游泳，因为那里都很冷

大堂弟的脚受伤，我还给他这个plaster呢

星期四最后一天了

他们星期五才走可是星期四晚上我去泰国

我真的一万个不想去，我宁愿去KLIA送机

早上我们就去mid valley dragon-i 吃早餐

吃早餐之前还拿了个棉花糖给小堂弟

还以为要他和哥哥share，结果他一下子就吃完了

难道叫darren的人都那么喜欢arm rest吗？

他和林震杰一样，很喜欢把手放在我肩旁

说是arm rest

哥哥在选东西时，我就甩开他

他就捉着我，抱我在原地转了一个圈

心都融化了，比一个男朋友还sweet

我们去poh kong，哥哥拍到这画面

甚至有人去告诉林震杰，wahh, bell new boyfie named darren again !! 

笑死我了，可是这小家伙真的很sweet ♥

晚上准备好要去泰国了，我的心情真的很沉重

我真的很舍不得

我一直逃避他们的眼神

哥哥抱我的时候，就眼泪就开始打转了

我叫弟弟抱我，弟弟一直很不乖

到最后抱了我一下，三两下子转了我去他的背后背着我走来走去

心又融化了

上了车之后，我哭得像小孩

临走前，我看见弟弟在擦脸

我ws他说我看见他哭，弟弟说那是雨水

才不信他

讲真的，很多人以为小堂弟是我男朋友

而且他真的很粘我，可是现在回去了我想他不记得我了

不知道的人真的都以为他是我男朋友

我真的很想念这两个小家伙

他们回去后我们一直怂恿他们毕业过后移民回来malaysia

这样我们就可以每个weekend去游泳看电影

真的希望他们能回来malaysia

什么时候我才又机会去london看他们 :(((